Been 2 yrs. Wow

It's Been 2 yrs and let me just say WOW! Lots has changed in my life. Some good, some not so good. Death has been a huge presence in my life this year. Either with family, friends or pets(who are more like family then some of my family). However, to be fair my family is small. The biggest shock for me was the way my youngest daughter behaved and treated me. Plus I still from time to time really miss my conversations with my mom.There are many things about her I do not miss, but being able to talk with her I really do miss.

Ugh

Ugh so why do I do these things to myself?  I ask myself this question daily. I think that is the question everyone asks themselves?

Bucket List of things I want to do with my life still.

Travel more in US & Canada, Europe if I can afford it.
learn to ride a motorcycle
Teach my grand kids the impotence of taking care of humanity.
Teach my grand kids manners
Walk on the beach more
Go Sailing
Go jet skiing
learn to do Glass blowing
Learn to do stain glass making
live more



I am sure I will add to this list from time to time.

tennis elbow

Well it's been 3 yrs since I have had anything to say on here. I know a long blank, blank, blank time. So lately I have been having a lot of thoughts that make me realize that when we give to much energy to something we become that thing. For example I currently have a case of tennis elbow and the few times I have spoken or told people about it, made me realize this morning that I am becoming that person that has tennis elbow.

I really don't want to be this person. I refuse to be the person that can't or won't do things because of my elbow. I refuse to be the person that even gives my elbow any time or thought. This is the reason why I don't complain about things. Can I say it doesn't bother me still, nope. All I can say is I refuse to obsess over trying to cure or fix it, complain about it or even give it any energy.

So this is a philosophy that I try to apply to about anything and everything in my life. I am still learning but I have to say this definitely the thing that is allowing me to let things go.

Hopefully I won't wait 3 more years to post again...Remains to be seen though. 

Use the Toilet paper sparingly

So it's been awhile since I have posted on any of my blogs. Just been busy tatting my life away. Don't think I have mentioned that I am a needle tatter on here ever.

Last post on here was about toilet paper. So in keeping with tradition I have decided to blog about it again. 

This is the time in my life where money is so tight I can't even afford to purchase toilet paper. You know you're struggling when you can't afford the toilet paper in the house. I'd put my address up on here and request that people send a role or two, but I am too afraid that I would end up with 20,000 rolls of toilet paper. Then I would have to come up with some creative way to craft with it all just to help cut down on my toilet paper, however seriously can some one mail me a roll?

Hypothetically what would I craft if I did receive that much toilet paper?  Perhaps something like this.

 

http://www.allthingspaper.net/2011/08/gulnas-kunstblog.html

Actually I do find that to be pretty awesome. 

Meanwhile I can't do any of it until I get a roll. 

Hope all is well with everyone. 

How did I arrive here again?

How did I arrive here again?  A friend suggested that it must be a wine night for to have arrived at this destination. However wine would not be the cause of the destination but rather a result of it instead. Then it was recommended I use my GPS in the future. People don't understand that I tend to argue with my GPS. So why is it that things in life seem to run in circles. I realize that it's because we have not learned certain lessons and the universe wants to make sure we get the lesson. However, why a circle and not a square?  Or any other shape for that matter.

The Dalai Lama said today "Gaining mastery over our destructive propensities, through the exercise of awareness and self-discipline with regard to our body, speech, and mind, frees us from the inner turmoil that naturally arises when our behaviour is at odds with our ideals. In place of this turmoil come confidence, integrity, and dignity - heroic qualities all human beings naturally aspire to." in his status on Facebook today. Perhaps the arrival is a sign of the turmoil in our lives?

So I say again, How did I arrive here again? I think my arrival is definitely a direct result of the turmoil in my life, and clearly I am not reaching my aspirations.

CAT